Psalm 139: 1-18
O Lord, you have searched me
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O Lord.
You hem me in - behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thought, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
I pray you know how much God loves you!
Last night at Life Group we were sharing some of what we see God doing within our body at The Crossing. There were four of us who have felt this urgency and deepened desire for prayer. I am amazed at how God has been speaking to us individually to unify us for His Kingdom.
On Tuesday night God was tugging at my heart to fast. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be fasting for. God has been commanding this from another friend at Life Group too. He has no idea what God specifically wants either. I ignored this yesterday because I wanted clarification and purpose behind it, but God reassured me to seek Him through this fast. In fact, that may be the purpose behind God's command to fast. Seek ME! Learn to live more in the Kingdom and less in the world. Store your treasure in ME not here on earth. You say I'm number one, but I want to see it in your life. As the country song goes, "A little less talk and a lot more action Em."
God is on the move and I want to join Him! I don't want his blessing to pass by. I need to live up to the expectation that Christ has of me and quit being okay, being okay. Praise God for disciplining me, for having grace and mercy on me, for restoring me, for instilling His desires in me over my selfish desires, for courage and strength, and for loving me through it all. Praise God!
During these seasons of change I see how obedient the trees are to let go of the life they knew this summer. They die to themselves. We see the colors of the leaves changing and see the beauty of the transformation. So, I ask why are we clenching onto the life we once knew? If only it was easier for us to be obedient like trees. To accept the change and transformation and find the beauty within it, rather than hesitate because we don't want to let go. We like the junk. It's comfortable. I find that the longer we hold onto the junk the harder it is to let it go and separate it from our lives. Why do we have such a tight grip on the trash in our lives? Lord, help us to let go and desperately seek after YOU and YOUR KINGDOM.
